Last year, I started the practice of choosing #myoneword for the year. The purpose is to choose a word as a point of focus for your decision making throughout the year.
My word for 2015 was balance. It was a very good choice, as every aspect of my life was out of balance. There were times throughout the year that I lost focus upon my word, but, thankfully I was always able to re-focus and get things back to where they needed to be.
I’ve been tossing around several options for #myoneword for 2106 and, as usual, was having a difficult time settling on one. None of them seemed to capture the essence of what I felt this year should be about (I actually wasn’t even sure what my year should be about). Choosing a word for the year is much like settling on a tattoo – you want to make sure it is the right one since you’ll be stuck with it for quite some time. And just like with my tattoos, I suddenly just knew that #myoneword HAD to be uncomfortable. I’ve been trying to push myself out of my comfort zone lately, and it occurred to me that I have committed to A LOT of things that are pushing me wayyyyyyyyyyyy outside of it! Apparently I had already started on this journey before I was even consciously aware of it! I love the way life works that way.
How am I making myself uncomfortable? Let me count the ways…
First, I committed to the role of race director for the first annual #DI4N 5k. I would never have said yes to that challenge, except it was for such a good cause that I could not turn it down. Nick Capehart was a vibrant, well-known, larger-than-life student in our community. He was just about to begin his senior year when he passed away in a terrible car accident in August. His passing left a huge void in our community and this is one way that we can work to continue his legacy. But….directing a race is a mammoth undertaking which has pushed me far outside my comfort zone. Trust me when I say it is very uncomfortable!
Second, and this is related to #1, I just completed my first TV interview. (Checked that off the list of things I NEVER thought I would do!) If you know me really well, you know that I am incredibly self-conscious about what I say. As a general rule, I have a lot difficulty with “small talk”. Surprisingly, I made it through the interview without a complete and total meltdown, and the words came with some ease. (I have to believe that Nick was there, helping Sherry and I say what needed to be said!) And I may be wrong here, but I don’t *think* I sounded like a country hick! You can watch the story here, if you are brave enough!
Of course, one of my main goals in choosing this word was to push myself outside my comfort zone in regards to running. After a speed workout or a race, I ALWAYS question whether or not I pushed myself hard enough. I am so afraid of pushing too hard, too early (then tanking) which makes me feel like I have a tendency to hold back too much. Even after Dallas, when I beat the time goal I didn’t even think I would make (by 15 minutes), I questioned whether or not I held back too much. I’m going to have to force myself to take some risks during speed work and races and be willing to fall flat on my face in order to see what I can actually do. THAT is going to be tough for the perfectionist in me!
Perhaps the biggest way that I am pushing myself out of my comfort zone is the transition to triathlons. I am SCARED. TO. DEATH. I suck at swimming. Even though I do ride as cross training, I figure I will suck at the bike portion of the race. And then there are the transitions. I can’t even think about transitions. I know that there is so much that I don’t know and I don’t like not knowing. But, moving into triathlon will be a big challenge and provide lots of opportunity for growth!
Happy Hump Day!